does goodness promise goodness

Ever since childhood I’ve been a victim of my mother’s knowledge and beliefs. Her constant push had been on an idea of how goodness was everything and how goodness always gave u goodness in return. I grew up to be very sensitive towards the feelings, opinions and emotions of other people. I would spend endless nights worrying and feeling guilty if I hurt someone or was rude in anyway. Luckily, times changed, because I started thinking for myself. I grew up! I learnt that No, goodness does not guarantee goodness in other people and you can’t inculcate it into them either. I would compromise, give in and make all the effort but no, no sign of goodness. It’s an art that comes to you naturally. After miserably failing at the idea of discovering goodness in people, I gave in to the darkness of this world.
If goodness always gave goodness in return then it would be a chain reaction and the whole wide world would be pure of all evil and filled with goodness. There would be no envy, no hatred and no anger. Unfortunately, the world isn’t about this. I stopped seeing any point of being nice to people who were not nice to you, to forgive people just because they were the great god’s creation. I started losing the thoughts I once owned. I found no pleasure in trying to embed goodness in others, because I would just see mere disappointment.
I would get hurt every now and then because my expectations would be crashed and I would get disappointed. Time today has lent me a great perspective, I believe that goodness is just for yourself, I don’t mean personal goodness, but the goodness you have for others. I firmly believe that respecting other people and being good to them is actually paying respect to you. Goodness is actually a feeling from within; it should have no strings of hope, expectation or a return. That is in all terms pure and selfless goodness. This world in all my imagination is a personal journey and man at one point is just with himself. I learnt that if I do things for other or compromise for others it should be out of selflessness not because I expect them to turn around and give me some of their goodness. This world is a selfish place and man has disappointed man since history. So do you think goodness guarantees goodness or is it a gesture that’s usually disappointed?

Is pain really harmful??

since a long time i have been wondering what is pain and what meaning does it own in my life?
my answer keeps changing except one factor that pain is temporary.
pain comes and goes, testing your weakness and your strenghts. im at a point in life where im a firm believer that pain is actually good for you, everytime your smashed by pain, it makes you stronger and it doesnt hit that hard next time. emotional pain is one of the most common occuring emotion in a mans life, you find it waiting for you at every other corner of life, hiding to trap you in its darkness. but have you ever felt that pain makes you stronger and more aware of yourself?
pain also makes us thankful for a phenomena we tend to ignore, the ability to forget. stop and think, if you were never to forget pain and it would be a constant companion,by your side all the time, just growing and growing. suppose, you could never forget the pain of losing your bestfriend,being cheated by someone you trusted,losing love, failing and lastly disapointment, the worst being the one from yourself. how would you feel?
so i learnt as i grew older that pain is good for us,it makes us stronger,more resistant,teaches us patience,exposes us to reality and gives us the mental tools to protect ourselves the next time we are an aim of piercing pain. the challenges we face as a victim of pain usually helps us became better friends with the person we know the most ,"yourself".
lastly pain teaches us to appreciate pleasure!
so if you tap into your past experiences of pain,do you think theyve made you stronger or weaker as a person??